March
2006
The Weary Working Wednesday
Waking up, tired and grumpy, forcing ones body to follow the directions of the unwilling mind… sting of period cramps, a tad sore throat… just a regular Wednesday morning, getting ready for work.
No, I’ve told myself not to write a diary-like blog, where I tell about my breakfast, this morning’s traffic and the colour of today’s jumper. But what I can’t help writing about, is the weariness of going to work every day when I am sick and tired of every bit of the job I have.
But, I have also told myself not to make this my whining-page. So what’s left? Writing about my interests, my thoughts, my opinions and my philosophies. Hopefully someone out there have similar interests or similiar thoughts, and will get something out of this page. Or, if you disagree with me, you are free to raise your voice.
The interesting part about draining myself at a job I truly dislike, is experiencing parts of myself that I otherwise wouldn’t have known.
Sometimes, I feel nothing but the utter despair, a tight knot in my stomach that makes no part of my day fun. Because when I get home, I am too drained and depressed to truly enjoy anything in the evenings. At other times, I get through the day by dreaming… either dreaming about the life that lies only months away - me studying a subject I am truly interested in. Or I dream about the wonderful world of Spira. Or Hogwarts. Sometimes this gives me valuable ideas that I can bring into my fanfics. (”Coffee and Chocobos” is the best example of this).
And, at other times again, I almost enjoy my day at work, experiencing the rare spark of motivation. Or maybe just the strength I sometimes get by knowing that this will soon be over, knowing that all the problems, challenges and tedious tasks at work will soon no longer be my responsibility.
So, always look at the bright side of life - these dreary, last days at work is a nice opportunity to get to learn parts of myself better.
Yeah. You’ll live longer if your attitude is like “Life of Bryan”
No, it’s not New Age. It’s psychology 
And it’s true. When you are sad, there is several things happening in your brain all the time. If you are depressed over a long period your imun system will be weaker.
Sorry, my english. Not so well… What is correct? “There are”, or “there is”? I’m to lazy to figure it out by my self
Have a good night.